Many thanks to Theresa Duncan for contributing this essay. She is a former video game designer and current cultural critic and filmmaker. She hails from Detroit, Michigan, but currently lives in Los Angeles. Theresa has written for Feed Magazine, Artforum, and Slate.
"My silence was the silence of ten men." --David Berman
I don't really think about Pynchon's invisibility, because somewhere in the back of my mind I know that like the Cottingsley Fairies he hides from THEM but reveals himself to US. So he's always there, you know, the game of fort/da forever over, because you can't lose what you never had. Pynchon's invisibility is so much more vivid, isn't it? Than seeing some warmed-over wonder read at the 92nd Street Y and you have to go "that's his voice?" matching it with the better one that comes like wind out of the great library of the uncollected unconscious to invisibly light up every book you've ever read. And then--God--listen to the sycophants in the audience titter at even the unfunny ones in order to prove that they are closer to the great man's mind and humor and vision.
Pynchon's disappearance then, is nearly as great an act of generosity as the wonder-books he himself writes. Like the Hebrew moment of Tsim Tsum where God first withdrew from the universe in order to make room for his creation the universe, Pynchon's withdrawal means that we get that much more mental real estate. You know that feeling? You wait and wait for a book like this, buy it, and when you get around to opening it, you just start expanding...There's not even any photos of Pynchon except that silly sailor one. Invisibility. Perhaps it's a vain celebrity peccadillo, but to me it works as an act of psychoanalytic silence, where what I really pay for is to have the great man with his mighty mind listen, not talk.
And in that silence (still so vividly shaped by compassion and humor and intelligence) we suddenly have a limitless place to put the best of ourselves. Have you ever had a session that was timed a half-minute off, and had to witness another analysand waiting in the tiny dim foyer off Central Park West, next to your leaded glass windows and the your long green velvet curtain, which you thought were perhaps imaginary, or maybe props placed just so to frame your mental stage productions and yours alone? I mean, you're basically paying to be an only child aren't you, not for this shit. And so by sparing us the sight of other readers, we get a book that has room enough not for just ten men, not just a limitless amount of them, but room for just one. And now I'm afraid that's all the time we have. That's not me you see brushing past as you climb from the waiting room outside into your own personal thought-kingdom. Dear Reader, (as they used to say) it's probably just some fake fairy from a photo, you know, or a trick of the literary light.
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